Monday, January 27, 2014

What happened to her?

I haven't posted anything here for a really long time. Such a shame. I miss it very much, not so much posting on this blog cause i never talked much here, but the other blog when i was still my late teens and i wrote about everything. I felt i need to share every emotion i go through in life.

It's not i have dumped art or stopped being passionate about things, but somehow i completely lost that part of me that made me who i used to be. Maybe the reason was losing connection with real world and friends, the stress of moving to new home or i just gave up.

So who is she now?
She's not the same, but will anyone ever stay the same? People i thought i knew are not the same either.

I feel i am less serious, i discovered that not too long ago and i like that new thing about me. Humor and silly fun never attracted me as much until i met that...thing...that changed my ideals. Maybe that's why i wanted to escape so bad, because it was all turning into gray and dry mess of perfectionist dreams.

I have one artwork in drawer i am quite proud of. It's not perfect by any means, but  nothing ever is. I need to go back to my roots when all i cared about was the emotions of artwork, even when it's not pretty. Also i have become much more patient than before. I keep working on details until it's way overdone for my taste. That's why you haven't seen my art for a long time, i need to  learn when to stop.

And yeah,
i am anxiously waiting spring and the taste of first berry of summer.